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Let me be clear. I am absolutely not spiritually enlightened. Not even close. I am more like an usher in a theatre where enlightenment happens for the actors on the stage. I get to watch the show and usher others to see the light.
Someday each of us we will have our turn. We will pay our dues, pass the audition and earn our roles. We will learn our lines, rehearse our parts and perform in the light. And then we become the light. We will be light. The light we always were before we wandered into darkness for awhile.
I know this. I don’t worry about it. In time we will all get there. In time we all wake up. It’s how it works. The cycle must be completed before it begins again. The wholeness is and then it isn’t and then it is and yet it always was. It never changed. It will never change. But the dream – this dream – feels so real.
I am just a skinny, bald man with a dark hat typing words on a computer in my office on a blue sky October Saturday in downtown Redding with an open sunny door and thuggish, throaty, traffic music punctuating the air like angry, metal elephants trumpeting their unsingable tunes.
It is and I am and you are reading these words from wherever you are at this moment and what we have in common is NOW. We have this now.
You are reading this now and I wrote it now. We imagine those two nows are not the same now. We imagine that and a million other things and all of it is true for awhile in our minds which we also imagined into being.
Spiritual enlightenment is not difficult. All we need to do is pay attention to time and resistance. If our minds are in time or resisting the present, we are in pain. When we identify with our conceptualized self or our conceptualized past or our imagined future, we miss the mark. We are off. And that’s ok.
We have to miss the mark to understand there is a mark to miss. We have to experience off to understand on. We have to hurt to understand peace. We need this war so we can surrender.
I’ve spent much of my life studying the subject from afar. I have the books and I’ve absorbed their energy like roots of a tree sucking up life from water in dirt. And I have lived in this odd world for 58 years and tested these truths repeatedly. I know what works and what doesn’t. And I know I’ve just begun to learn.
I wrote this the other day for some special people in a class I am teaching:
Becoming Light can be viewed as a form of spiritual growth. We can be spiritually heavy or spiritually light. To be spiritually light is to be easy with ourselves. Gentle. Careful. Open. Patient. Relaxed.
To be spiritually light is to be willing. Surrendering to reality means opening our eyes, ears, hearts and minds to what is without fear or hesitation.
When we are present, we resist the temptation to desert our sacred post and flee into the future or past. We remain here and do not judge. We merely see. We inhale this truth as if it were love tickling us as it pours into every pore and portal. All we know is this open place is safe. Why would we leave it?
Here now we know is well. All is welcome. All is received. All is. Becoming light, we awaken into the brightness of awareness and see we have a choice.
The open secret is now revealed. We have two minds. One small and one big. Into which mind do we choose to live?
Depression, confusion, anxiety, fear, anger and blame inhabit the small mind. For too long we have fallen for the lie that this is our only home.
We now know the existence of illumination – literally a house of light – into which we can live, love and learn. It is accessible within. There is a door and it has no lock. It has a knob which we can turn and as we open it, it opens us.
It is our choice. Which mind will be mine? Which way will I choose?
It is too late to turn back. Once we see, we cannot un-see. Once we know, we cannot un-know. Once we hold the truth, it holds us. Once we stand under the light, we understand the light and become the light.
Let time be. Resist nothing. Want nothing. Watch your mind without blame or expectation. Hold it lightly. Admire your breathing life. Be.
(*From Spiritual Journey)
Doug Craig graduated from college in Ohio with a journalism degree and got married during the Carter administration. He graduated from graduate school with a doctorate in Psychology, got divorced, moved to Redding, re-married and started his private practice during the Reagan administration. He had his kids during the first Bush administration. Since then he has done nothing noteworthy besides write a little poetry, survive a motorcycle crash, buy and sell an electric car, raise his kids, manage to stay married and maintain his practice for almost 25 years. He believes in magic and is a Sacramento Kings fan.